Lifecatcher

Being bored has officially reached an art form.

Only a week left, more or less, before i return to school. YAY! To be honest, semestral break isn’t the "much welcomed rest" I’d been expecting it to be. All it’s given me is:

1. Stress.
-I’m not doing anything. Other than cleaning, cooking, thinking, and just being screamed at, I’m not doing anything. My brain isn’t thinking at all. No brain stimulation. The intellectual one, mind you.
I’m trying to busy myself into writing fics, stories, poetry, even articles. All of which, for me, are boring. It seems all my work has transformed into boring. So yeah, I’m looking forward to the stress of college. And furthermore, the stress of being able to transfer to U.P. (Go me! :D)

2. Tiredness.
-Really, i do get to sleep properly. I don’t have to force myself to wake up at 3 or 4 am to just study Although i really like doing that. because those times make the brain receptive to learning. But i still feel tired at the end of the day.

3. I feel like an idiot.
-During sem break, i feel all the things i learned just POURING out of my brain. At random intervals.

Anyways.
I plan to do several things this second sem. before i even transfer to U.P. hopefully

1.I plan on joining the USTetika. I’ve got the form here. Now, all i need is the work of literary art to finish. This is really freaking me out. I joined for poetry. English poetry. Because i am bad at filipino grammar. But anyway, the deadline? It’s on November 11th, and i have done NOTHING.

I feel so inadequate. D:

2. I NEED to be way more active in TDC. The TDC is UST’s debate council. I haven’t even been asessed yet. All the fiasco and confusion concerning them and their schedules. ACK. I wish TDC officers would actually get their time straight. I don’t really know if there’s training anymore. I used to go to ALL the trainings, and i intend to finish the whole damned training. Now, they don’t even announce in our Yahoo!groups when the training will be. And sadly, i have perpetually no load so i can’t ask them. To top it all off, my mother won’t even let me go to the weekend trainings which i am not sure if it still exists because we end up going there at 8 am then we leave at around 5 or 6 pm. I. Am. Dead. D:

3. I hope i can produce a coherent article for manila bulletin or any other newspaper willing to publish my crap.

4. I need to re-learn french. Why? Because i am now stupid at french and my present vocabulary has shrunk to that of a two-year old french toddler. Plus, my accent sounds way more stupid now than it did when i actually HAD PEOPLE TO TALK TO IN FRENCH. Same goes for japanese. Except i am still fluent in it. Gah. Vocabulary is evil. So is the "Ni" particle form.

5. All my grades need to be flat 1’s. Seriously. I only got 3 1’s this semester out of 9 subjects. My lowest is a 2.75. Two of those to be exact. That’s almost a 3. Oh my freaking god i seriously need to get my grades up. And why did i get a 2 point something in Journalism again? I HAVE NO IDEA. D:

6. I need muses. To write. Seriously. I have nothing to draw upon. Sure there’s H. (Which can stand for either Hatred, Hippie, Heckler, Hustler, Hampered, Hellenic,  or whatever proper noun, common noun, or adjective that can start with an H.) But, yeah aside from that. Nothing.

But Supernatural is coming soon. Which means MORE FICS!

GO ME!!!!!one!!shift+111!!shiftone!eleven!!1!+shift!11!

Now, enrollment. Enrollment is evil. Why does everyone like KORFBALL!? I wanted to get this P.E., but EVERYONE JUST WANTED IT. Enrollment had just opened for around 12, then 10 mins later (that was when i got there) Korfball was ALL FREAKING GONE. So i took softball. It’s better. At least i semi-know how to play it. My schedule?

P.E. is on tuesdays, 9-11 am, then on MWF, it’s from 11am-3pm, then Tth its 1pm-7pm. Still.

Schedule hasn’t changed. The horrors of MANILA AT NIGHT! NOES! The 7 pm slot is annoying me. This makes all of us TIRED.

So, after this retarded post will someone PLEASE COMMENT! EVEN IF IT’S RANDOM! COMMENT!

It seems absurd that i created a blog here on friendster and it seems that all i’ve ever put on it is utter nonsense.

I.e. 2 posts of whatevers.

So then, why am i even writing in this journal? Well, blame it on semestral break. Semestral break is breaking my brain and i am itching for some intellectual stimulation. Or conversation. Or whatever. I’M PRETTY SURE MY BRAIN IS SCREAMING "I NEED TO THINK."

And furthermore, right now, PRISON BREAK is on TV, and it’s making me jittery. It just is.

Now for the part where i actually say something that might be interesting.

I have been neglecting a lot of things.

LOL. Don’t we all neglect things? People do that always and it is just unavoidable. It just is. But then again, maybe we have to be a little more on the observative side of things.

Maybe we aren’t just neglecting responsibilities, or the people who should matter to us, or whatever else we deem as important for us. Perhaps we might be neglecting our surroundings. Maybe we are neglecting the fact that someone could be a potentially good friend for us. Or we could  be neglecting the thought that the people we stay with could be bad for us. Or maybe.

It seems clear at this point that I am just rambling.

Heheh. Fine, here are somethings that i might have been neglecting.

1. Learning. No, not learning per se, but really WANTING TO LEARN. I find that i might not have the same hunger for learning as i had during my high school. Still wanting to learn, but maybe not as intense as before.

Now, don’t go thinking that i’ve gone all lazy and not studied at all. Because. SRSLY, i have been getting up at 4 or 5 in the morning just to read and review my papers.

Especially government papers. The law is just plain evil. :/

Plus, journalism media theories are no joke. I HAVE BEEN GETTING UP EARLY IN THE MORNING JUST TO GET THESE STUFF IN MY HEAD. Also, i read during commute. I review during commute.

But still i feel like i’m being lazy. OMG.

2. My cosplay groups. I know that during the summer i wanted to be really active in my cosplay groups, but i just seem to not have enough time for my fandoms. It’s either i’m studying, i’m working at home, or not being given a chance to just be that.

Can you believe it, i just remembered that i have a D.N. Angel cosplay group launching tentatively on November 29h this year! Thank god i’ve got the costume ready in my closet. But it requires WINGS. Lord knows how i’ll be able to make wings this fast.

But it’s tentative. LOL, Lab rat, the leader hasn’t even made her wings yet anyway.

And i also, i have a TRC group, hopefully we’ll be able to release this summer. And also my Cakes an lilies group! mustn’t forget about that. I’m one fo the co-founders fo that group.

I still want to be able to do a lot of cosplays, but it’s all a matter of time, and time, and time. OMG. TIME. I wish it was flexible. D:

3. Also, i might have been neglecting some other things i had no idea i was neglecting.

Like language lessons. I CAN’T SPEAK FRENCH ANYMORE. Properly at least. This scares me, in ways you might not even be able to imagine. Also, my japanese is deteriorating into mediocrity, and whereas before i could be able to create speeches with the language, now i am reduced to just being able to talk with the language. Of course i can still read, but it doesn’t feel like a first tounge anymore. It feels more like a second tounge now, as opposed to before. D:

This is a result of having absolutely no ONE to talk to in these languages.

RAWR.

Also, on a side note, I’m worried about my dog. He’s breaking out into little evil rashes. ACK! i feel sorry for him. :3

Fine, i might have run out of things to write. For now that is.

I might be neglecting a lot of things, but i’m pretty sure i’m putting my focus back on. The important stuff that is. I might be not seeing something there, but o’m pretty sure i’ll see it in the long run.

Gads, now i must stop. I am wasting internetz. :3

See you~ the cat on your backyard wall.